OK, so THANK YOU ANKA! My bestest buddy in the whole world (well, except for Danny of course hehe) talked to me last night and shared with me this awesome website called Christianity.com. Just this morning I added 2-3 devotionals to my e-mail list (after signing up of course,) signed up for Bible in a Year and read my first three chapters this morning, and also posted on their forums for young adults (all of us lost 20-somethings needing a place to go LOLS!)
I am just so happy and giddy right now I wanna just go crazy lol! I don't think I have felt this good in a while, and I am just so happy! I think I am totally ready for God to just take hold of me and run off in every direction at once! xD I wanna feel this way EVERY DAY! Now, I just have to pray that Danny finds this same joy and exhilaration someday =] I pray that he will, and I pray that God will continue to move in my life like this every single day! I don't wanna lose this feeling ever!
I just wanna pray for everyone today that you all find everlasting joy, and that should anything get in the way of that joy, that you will have the strength to just shrug it off and overcome it with the power of God at your side! Blessings everybody! Have an awesome day!!
<3
The LORD is my light and my salvation -- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life -- of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 27:1 (New International Version)
Monday, August 31, 2009
Friday, August 28, 2009
STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah...so the first few days after school let out I have already been covered in stress. I hate it. Danny is driving me crazy (bless his heart i love the boy but I am going totally nuts...) and im trying to make sure i have stuff for next term settled since it starts in 2 weeks, and every time i say i dont want extra work days i get them. lol...i guess i kinda need them but i am just sick to death of ALWAYS having something to do! plus, money is getting on my nerves. Everyone i talk to seems to be doing something i want to do and it always involves money....money i definitely do not have. >.> I guess in the grand scheme of things, life isn't all THAT bad...but I just really desire a vacation from everything and everyone....I think the only way i will get that is if I win the Lotto, give Danny 80 percent of it to put into Forex and ill take the rest to shop with, go on a spa vay cay with and do every activity i could ever imagine doing. lolol. yeah...that would be awesome but 99.99999999999998% unlikely lol. meh.
im at work now...and by Gods grace i got the net tonight!! YIPPIE!!! Happy is sleeping, and the night is going well so far. Working again tomorrow night and sunday night so it will be a busy weekend for me as usual...but at least this time i dont have any homework to do! WOOT!
OK kids, keeping this short tonight. my comp works only in an obscure spot for the net and it is hard to type for too long so that's it for me!! Loves!!
<333 Peace and Blessings kids ;)
If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
2 Corinthians 5:17 (New International Version)
im at work now...and by Gods grace i got the net tonight!! YIPPIE!!! Happy is sleeping, and the night is going well so far. Working again tomorrow night and sunday night so it will be a busy weekend for me as usual...but at least this time i dont have any homework to do! WOOT!
OK kids, keeping this short tonight. my comp works only in an obscure spot for the net and it is hard to type for too long so that's it for me!! Loves!!
<333 Peace and Blessings kids ;)
If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
2 Corinthians 5:17 (New International Version)
Saturday, August 15, 2009
motivation fails me
Hey peeps!
Not too much going on since my last post. Just trying to get up off my butt and get some things done although this has been very hard for me. I just cannot get myself motivated to do/finish things. I know it needs to be done, but just can't get myself to do it. Danny says things like: Well, just do it then. Yeah, he doesn't have to do it so it's easy for him to say isn't it??
It sucks being so busy some times that when you finally get time off sorta everything just kinda goes by the wayside and ceases to get done. At least I can say that couple things have gotten done. I straightened up the house a *tiny* bit...and I mean tiny! It seemed like a lot though, but this place needs a complete overhaul, and not one I am willing to sacrifice my free time for. lols. Tonight though, we took the new desk (that I got from my bro a couple days ago,) and rearranged the living room to accommodate both the old and new desk. The old desk was originally mine, so I get that one (even though it IS broken...) and Danny has the new one. It's fine though because I am happy with the space I have in mine. I have room for my laptop and space to spread out my school books so I can study. ^^ I dusted it, threw stuff out, and reorganized it! It's so pretty now. ^^
I guess I really need to work on my self discipline. still working on the anger too (which is my biggest vice I think,) but over the last couple days it hasn't been too too bad.
I don't really have too much more to talk about... things have been pretty uneventful lately. Just trying to stay busy and keep up with my work. which hasn't been easy either. I can't wait until school is out -.-
Love you guys!!! May God bless you all! <3333
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
John 16:33
(New International Version)
Not too much going on since my last post. Just trying to get up off my butt and get some things done although this has been very hard for me. I just cannot get myself motivated to do/finish things. I know it needs to be done, but just can't get myself to do it. Danny says things like: Well, just do it then. Yeah, he doesn't have to do it so it's easy for him to say isn't it??
It sucks being so busy some times that when you finally get time off sorta everything just kinda goes by the wayside and ceases to get done. At least I can say that couple things have gotten done. I straightened up the house a *tiny* bit...and I mean tiny! It seemed like a lot though, but this place needs a complete overhaul, and not one I am willing to sacrifice my free time for. lols. Tonight though, we took the new desk (that I got from my bro a couple days ago,) and rearranged the living room to accommodate both the old and new desk. The old desk was originally mine, so I get that one (even though it IS broken...) and Danny has the new one. It's fine though because I am happy with the space I have in mine. I have room for my laptop and space to spread out my school books so I can study. ^^ I dusted it, threw stuff out, and reorganized it! It's so pretty now. ^^
I guess I really need to work on my self discipline. still working on the anger too (which is my biggest vice I think,) but over the last couple days it hasn't been too too bad.
I don't really have too much more to talk about... things have been pretty uneventful lately. Just trying to stay busy and keep up with my work. which hasn't been easy either. I can't wait until school is out -.-
Love you guys!!! May God bless you all! <3333
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
John 16:33
(New International Version)
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Oi....
Yeah...so...It's been forever I know! I am so sorry guys. I really have been busy lately. School has taken a lot of my free time (facebook is only in the background guys I promise lol...besides, it's a good break for me ;] )
I know that lately I have been battling major stress and frustration, and it's starting to bring out my anger more and more. This I an actively trying to work on now. Only God can help me through that.
For those of you who were following me when I started this blog know it was intended to be a 40-day challenge to improve my faith in Christ (which I KNOW can't always be done in 40 days, but it was a good start for my self-discipline). As you can see, I sorta failed this part lol... in blogging and in my life. This stuff is NOT easy for anyone who thinks it is (unless of course you have a pastor/drill sergeant type dude screaming in your face all day every day ^^).
I DO know that since I have been away I have conquered my fear of boats ^^ YAY! For those of you who don't know I'll explain:
when I was a freshman in high school, my dad and I really enjoyed fishing together--even since I was a kid growing up in Virginia--it was just the way our family spent time together. Well, we wanted to go on a deep sea fishing trip. My mother has horrible motion sickness and did not want to go, so it was just a father/daughter day =] This is especially nice because my dad do NOT always see eye to eye and have a very hard time talking to each other without an interrogation by him or us fighting over whatever the hot topic is at the time. So, this day was going to be special. We got up at 5 a.m., I had a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast and off we went ready for a day out in the Gulf! We got out there to see a substitute captain but we didn't think anything of it nor even cared that much. Turns out, there was 8-10 ft. seas that day. I was the first one sick. The bagel went over the side (even my dramamine that I had taken moments before). After that, I was laying down on a covered area in the boat on a cushioned bench with a large bucket, and it was full...my DAD (who NEVER get's sick, and in my 23 years have only seen him sick twice,) even joined me once or twice which only made me sicker. Mind you, by this point I'm chucking stomach acid so it was bright yellow/orange, and burned my stomach and throat so bad I thought I swallowed fire. NOT pretty! I am not sure if it was part of the dramamine that was left in my system (if any,) or just me puking (literally) all day, that I actually passed out and didn't wake up until the END OF THE TRIP! This was at 6 p.m.! I later found out that everyone on the boat was sick and not a single person on that boat was fishing. Not only was this just sheer stupidity but also very dangerous because our boat could have capsized or someone could have gotten tossed over because the seas were so rough.
Long story short, I was on medicine for a year to correct the damage done to my stomach (pain was so bad I couldn't sleep many times,) I had nightmares of the event several times, and was afraid of being sick again and always got an anxiety attack every time I thought about getting back on a boat. So I haven't been on one since. My dad felt like it was his fault even though it wasn't. But, on Sunday God presented me with the opportunity to go out on the boat again with no way for me to make an excuse to get out of it (Thanks God...lol). I loved it! I still needed some dramamine, but only felt dizzy when we were still and kept getting hit by waves.
I am so happy that I finally went back out there. It made everyone so happy! I actually have pictures now to prove it hehe I'll have to post those soon. ^^ This all did have a point though I promise ;]
It is amazing how God will just stick you in a situation when you feel you aren't ready to face it. I prayed so much that day! It was insane! However, God got me through it and I had a fantastic day!! Let this be a lesson to you all: TRUST IN GOD! He knows what is best for us, and at what time we are ready to face whatever it is we need to face in our lives. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, and trust me! I feel stronger now, and I am able to enjoy more time with my family. We even found spots where people take the boat to a sandbar/beach deal and they camp out there!! So Danny and I have a new way to go out and spend time together!! I can't wait because it sounds like so much fun!
Well, this has gotten a LOT longer than I expected, so I think it's time to say goodbye for now ^^ I hope you all have a blessed day and I will see you as soon as I can!! Hopefully tonight or tomorrow.
<3 and Blessings!
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
Hebrews 11:6 (New International Version)
I know that lately I have been battling major stress and frustration, and it's starting to bring out my anger more and more. This I an actively trying to work on now. Only God can help me through that.
For those of you who were following me when I started this blog know it was intended to be a 40-day challenge to improve my faith in Christ (which I KNOW can't always be done in 40 days, but it was a good start for my self-discipline). As you can see, I sorta failed this part lol... in blogging and in my life. This stuff is NOT easy for anyone who thinks it is (unless of course you have a pastor/drill sergeant type dude screaming in your face all day every day ^^).
I DO know that since I have been away I have conquered my fear of boats ^^ YAY! For those of you who don't know I'll explain:
when I was a freshman in high school, my dad and I really enjoyed fishing together--even since I was a kid growing up in Virginia--it was just the way our family spent time together. Well, we wanted to go on a deep sea fishing trip. My mother has horrible motion sickness and did not want to go, so it was just a father/daughter day =] This is especially nice because my dad do NOT always see eye to eye and have a very hard time talking to each other without an interrogation by him or us fighting over whatever the hot topic is at the time. So, this day was going to be special. We got up at 5 a.m., I had a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast and off we went ready for a day out in the Gulf! We got out there to see a substitute captain but we didn't think anything of it nor even cared that much. Turns out, there was 8-10 ft. seas that day. I was the first one sick. The bagel went over the side (even my dramamine that I had taken moments before). After that, I was laying down on a covered area in the boat on a cushioned bench with a large bucket, and it was full...my DAD (who NEVER get's sick, and in my 23 years have only seen him sick twice,) even joined me once or twice which only made me sicker. Mind you, by this point I'm chucking stomach acid so it was bright yellow/orange, and burned my stomach and throat so bad I thought I swallowed fire. NOT pretty! I am not sure if it was part of the dramamine that was left in my system (if any,) or just me puking (literally) all day, that I actually passed out and didn't wake up until the END OF THE TRIP! This was at 6 p.m.! I later found out that everyone on the boat was sick and not a single person on that boat was fishing. Not only was this just sheer stupidity but also very dangerous because our boat could have capsized or someone could have gotten tossed over because the seas were so rough.
Long story short, I was on medicine for a year to correct the damage done to my stomach (pain was so bad I couldn't sleep many times,) I had nightmares of the event several times, and was afraid of being sick again and always got an anxiety attack every time I thought about getting back on a boat. So I haven't been on one since. My dad felt like it was his fault even though it wasn't. But, on Sunday God presented me with the opportunity to go out on the boat again with no way for me to make an excuse to get out of it (Thanks God...lol). I loved it! I still needed some dramamine, but only felt dizzy when we were still and kept getting hit by waves.
I am so happy that I finally went back out there. It made everyone so happy! I actually have pictures now to prove it hehe I'll have to post those soon. ^^ This all did have a point though I promise ;]
It is amazing how God will just stick you in a situation when you feel you aren't ready to face it. I prayed so much that day! It was insane! However, God got me through it and I had a fantastic day!! Let this be a lesson to you all: TRUST IN GOD! He knows what is best for us, and at what time we are ready to face whatever it is we need to face in our lives. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, and trust me! I feel stronger now, and I am able to enjoy more time with my family. We even found spots where people take the boat to a sandbar/beach deal and they camp out there!! So Danny and I have a new way to go out and spend time together!! I can't wait because it sounds like so much fun!
Well, this has gotten a LOT longer than I expected, so I think it's time to say goodbye for now ^^ I hope you all have a blessed day and I will see you as soon as I can!! Hopefully tonight or tomorrow.
<3 and Blessings!
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
Hebrews 11:6 (New International Version)
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