Time to ressurrect this thing...or at least try to lol

Well...I know I neglected this really bad! I'm just not good at the constant blogging thing I guess! But, it's cool to talk through this thing sometimes. =]

For those of you keeping up on facebook/Twitter (mostly Facebook...) Then you are pretty much up-to-date on all the stuff going on! However, it can't hurt to post something once and a while right?

In keeping with the original theme of the blog, I think it's fitting that I talk about my baby. 'What does that have to do with you walk with Christ?' I'm sure you're asking yourself. Truth is...I was NOT planning or even thinking of having children now. I wanted to wait until school was done with...Danny and I were more financially stable, among other things. In all honestly, I was freaking out when I found out I was pregnant. That first day I didn't know if I should be thrilled to pieces or if I should just jump off a ledge (figuratively speaking ppl...don't have a cow!) I cried...I panicked. That day, which should have been the best day of my life seemed like a nightmare. Even telling my mother on the phone didn't help my case much since she felt that we weren't ready for this (financially, emotionally, etc.) So even at that time, it felt like the only one who was at all happy was Danny. I'm sure he was freaking out inside, but he loves kids and wasn't going to let some life crap get in the way.

I wish I was so secure in things to be like that...but I'm not. I'm a planner, focused on the future. Unexpected things in life throw me off especially when I am totally unprepared.

Would I abort? HELL NO! As terrified as I was for our situation, I would never do that. Not unless there was a life-threatening matter at hand. The day I found out Danny still hadn't found a job. I was scared.

But then, something miraculous happened! The next day (Monday,) Danny got a phone call saying he was set to start working on Tuesday!! And I got signed up for health care on Wednesday! As all of these things began to unfold I realized something...I wasn't in control. At ALL. I knew at that point that God was the one who made all this happen. It reminded me that God is in control. He may not make things happen when and how we want them to, but in the end it all works out because he has perfect timing. And talk about timing btw! I'll be finished with school before the baby is born! You can't get any more perfect than that!

After that first week, I was nothing but ecstatic because I knew that this precious cargo I'm carrying is created and covered by none other than God himself. As concerned and nervous as I may get as a first time mom, I still know in my mind that God's got this...I don't have to do a thing.

In all things in life it's important to remember that we need to keep God first, and let him do his will. It's so hard to do but it applies in every situation. Lost your job? It's ok! God will give you the strength to go out and find a new one...and the right one for you. Worried about the bills? God will provide for you. Unexpected expectations??? (hehe...in my case...) God will cover you. Just let him do what he needs to do. Your stress level will go down considerably. I can't say that I let go all the time...I don't. It's still hard for me to do. But, when unexpected things happen I have to keep my faith that God is in control, and I'm gonna be OK.

Now, I don't look at my pregnancy as a burden, but a blessing and a joy from The One. Our family is growing and maturing and it's all thanks to Our Savior!! I look down at my belly, and i feel peace because I have a life inside me, and I know that he/she is brought to us by God...protected by Him. It can't get any better than that my friends.

May God be your strength today as you go through your every day. Let him do his will and strengthen your heart with each step. Do not be afraid, for the Lord is with you!

Praise You All! Much love and Many glorious blessings <3

-Dawn