I knew there was a reason I said I did NOT want to have any children while I was still in school! This crap is just too darn stressful! Thankfully, I will be done with ALL classes and school (FOREVER) by the end of the month! YAY! Then, I can focus on what has been bogging my mind down: My first baby!!!! AHHHH!!!
Who would have thought that ME...DAWN GOODEN...would be having a child. It's unreal really. Just a few years ago, I was hell bent on declaring that my womb would not fulfill its purpose (and I was PERFECTLY fine with that!) However, since I got married to Danny, more and more I felt like something was missing. I wanted to have that experience of carrying a child!
**WHAT has gotten into me?!**
This was NOT the brain of my former self talking. Something in me changed, and I have no idea when or why. Perhaps I felt like the love Danny and I shared was not being conveyed, or maybe I felt that it was just one of those things I had to do now because I'm married. Whatever the reason, I'm happy about it =] Our money situation is not ideal for raising a child right now, but this did NOT happen by our will. I am confident when I say that this was ALL GOD. Who else could allow me to be pregnant and finish school with time to spare before our baby arrives? I couldn't have timed it better if I tried! So, I know for a fact that this blessing was from God alone. Only HE knows what is right and what is best for us. Only HE can give us what we need when we need it, and I feel like we have been truly blessed with everything so far.
We can keep our house, we both have good jobs (with decent income) and not to mention a great support system of friends and family who are there to help us! Thank you all. You don't know how much I love you all for your support. That right there is the TRUE blessing. =]
I know the morning I found out I was pregnant, I was terrified, angry, depressed...just miserable. I surrounded myself with all the negative aspects of me having a baby right now, and every reason why it's wrong for it to happen now. I thought 'why couldn't this just wait until after school or after we got our finances in order? we aren't mature enough for this, or ready by any standards!'
But later that day I realized that I had promised God years ago that I would trust in Him, and that whatever he allowed to happen, would happen with his covering and his protection. I put my trust in Him, and for a moment I had forgotten that I trusted him so much. I needed to remember my promise, and let God take the reins. I'm glad I did because just in that 1st week we were showered with so many blessings and wonderful things, that it just wouldn't have worked out without God. I know that now! I am so grateful every day that the Lord has blessed me with an easy pregnancy, a healthy baby boy (well, as he is right now lol,) and with big plans for our future.
So now, I'm graduating in about a month, I'll get my diploma, have an awesome baby shower, see my house become a home, and have my baby...my beautiful son who is created with God's love, and is a symbol of how much Danny and I love each other. As angry as me makes me most of the time (and I'm talking 99.99% here,) I couldn't imagine my life without him. I know deep in my heart that I need him, and I would be half the woman I am today without him at my side. Not to mention that I can see the amazing father he will become, and how happy he will be =]
Thank you, Father for these things. Today...despite all the stress of a messy house (that I'm not allowed to clean lol,) my poor cat (who is currently stitched up after getting fixed yesterday,) and the last few weeks of school, I am blessed to have these things, and to have the satisfaction that I know that I will be marking off so many milestones in such a short time.
Praise you, Lord for I am blessed ^^
Tuesday, April 6, 2010
Wednesday, February 3, 2010
Time to ressurrect this thing...or at least try to lol
Well...I know I neglected this really bad! I'm just not good at the constant blogging thing I guess! But, it's cool to talk through this thing sometimes. =]
For those of you keeping up on facebook/Twitter (mostly Facebook...) Then you are pretty much up-to-date on all the stuff going on! However, it can't hurt to post something once and a while right?
In keeping with the original theme of the blog, I think it's fitting that I talk about my baby. 'What does that have to do with you walk with Christ?' I'm sure you're asking yourself. Truth is...I was NOT planning or even thinking of having children now. I wanted to wait until school was done with...Danny and I were more financially stable, among other things. In all honestly, I was freaking out when I found out I was pregnant. That first day I didn't know if I should be thrilled to pieces or if I should just jump off a ledge (figuratively speaking ppl...don't have a cow!) I cried...I panicked. That day, which should have been the best day of my life seemed like a nightmare. Even telling my mother on the phone didn't help my case much since she felt that we weren't ready for this (financially, emotionally, etc.) So even at that time, it felt like the only one who was at all happy was Danny. I'm sure he was freaking out inside, but he loves kids and wasn't going to let some life crap get in the way.
I wish I was so secure in things to be like that...but I'm not. I'm a planner, focused on the future. Unexpected things in life throw me off especially when I am totally unprepared.
Would I abort? HELL NO! As terrified as I was for our situation, I would never do that. Not unless there was a life-threatening matter at hand. The day I found out Danny still hadn't found a job. I was scared.
But then, something miraculous happened! The next day (Monday,) Danny got a phone call saying he was set to start working on Tuesday!! And I got signed up for health care on Wednesday! As all of these things began to unfold I realized something...I wasn't in control. At ALL. I knew at that point that God was the one who made all this happen. It reminded me that God is in control. He may not make things happen when and how we want them to, but in the end it all works out because he has perfect timing. And talk about timing btw! I'll be finished with school before the baby is born! You can't get any more perfect than that!
After that first week, I was nothing but ecstatic because I knew that this precious cargo I'm carrying is created and covered by none other than God himself. As concerned and nervous as I may get as a first time mom, I still know in my mind that God's got this...I don't have to do a thing.
In all things in life it's important to remember that we need to keep God first, and let him do his will. It's so hard to do but it applies in every situation. Lost your job? It's ok! God will give you the strength to go out and find a new one...and the right one for you. Worried about the bills? God will provide for you. Unexpected expectations??? (hehe...in my case...) God will cover you. Just let him do what he needs to do. Your stress level will go down considerably. I can't say that I let go all the time...I don't. It's still hard for me to do. But, when unexpected things happen I have to keep my faith that God is in control, and I'm gonna be OK.
Now, I don't look at my pregnancy as a burden, but a blessing and a joy from The One. Our family is growing and maturing and it's all thanks to Our Savior!! I look down at my belly, and i feel peace because I have a life inside me, and I know that he/she is brought to us by God...protected by Him. It can't get any better than that my friends.
May God be your strength today as you go through your every day. Let him do his will and strengthen your heart with each step. Do not be afraid, for the Lord is with you!
Praise You All! Much love and Many glorious blessings <3
-Dawn
For those of you keeping up on facebook/Twitter (mostly Facebook...) Then you are pretty much up-to-date on all the stuff going on! However, it can't hurt to post something once and a while right?
In keeping with the original theme of the blog, I think it's fitting that I talk about my baby. 'What does that have to do with you walk with Christ?' I'm sure you're asking yourself. Truth is...I was NOT planning or even thinking of having children now. I wanted to wait until school was done with...Danny and I were more financially stable, among other things. In all honestly, I was freaking out when I found out I was pregnant. That first day I didn't know if I should be thrilled to pieces or if I should just jump off a ledge (figuratively speaking ppl...don't have a cow!) I cried...I panicked. That day, which should have been the best day of my life seemed like a nightmare. Even telling my mother on the phone didn't help my case much since she felt that we weren't ready for this (financially, emotionally, etc.) So even at that time, it felt like the only one who was at all happy was Danny. I'm sure he was freaking out inside, but he loves kids and wasn't going to let some life crap get in the way.
I wish I was so secure in things to be like that...but I'm not. I'm a planner, focused on the future. Unexpected things in life throw me off especially when I am totally unprepared.
Would I abort? HELL NO! As terrified as I was for our situation, I would never do that. Not unless there was a life-threatening matter at hand. The day I found out Danny still hadn't found a job. I was scared.
But then, something miraculous happened! The next day (Monday,) Danny got a phone call saying he was set to start working on Tuesday!! And I got signed up for health care on Wednesday! As all of these things began to unfold I realized something...I wasn't in control. At ALL. I knew at that point that God was the one who made all this happen. It reminded me that God is in control. He may not make things happen when and how we want them to, but in the end it all works out because he has perfect timing. And talk about timing btw! I'll be finished with school before the baby is born! You can't get any more perfect than that!
After that first week, I was nothing but ecstatic because I knew that this precious cargo I'm carrying is created and covered by none other than God himself. As concerned and nervous as I may get as a first time mom, I still know in my mind that God's got this...I don't have to do a thing.
In all things in life it's important to remember that we need to keep God first, and let him do his will. It's so hard to do but it applies in every situation. Lost your job? It's ok! God will give you the strength to go out and find a new one...and the right one for you. Worried about the bills? God will provide for you. Unexpected expectations??? (hehe...in my case...) God will cover you. Just let him do what he needs to do. Your stress level will go down considerably. I can't say that I let go all the time...I don't. It's still hard for me to do. But, when unexpected things happen I have to keep my faith that God is in control, and I'm gonna be OK.
Now, I don't look at my pregnancy as a burden, but a blessing and a joy from The One. Our family is growing and maturing and it's all thanks to Our Savior!! I look down at my belly, and i feel peace because I have a life inside me, and I know that he/she is brought to us by God...protected by Him. It can't get any better than that my friends.
May God be your strength today as you go through your every day. Let him do his will and strengthen your heart with each step. Do not be afraid, for the Lord is with you!
Praise You All! Much love and Many glorious blessings <3
-Dawn
Monday, August 31, 2009
HOLY COW I FEEL GREAT!!
OK, so THANK YOU ANKA! My bestest buddy in the whole world (well, except for Danny of course hehe) talked to me last night and shared with me this awesome website called Christianity.com. Just this morning I added 2-3 devotionals to my e-mail list (after signing up of course,) signed up for Bible in a Year and read my first three chapters this morning, and also posted on their forums for young adults (all of us lost 20-somethings needing a place to go LOLS!)
I am just so happy and giddy right now I wanna just go crazy lol! I don't think I have felt this good in a while, and I am just so happy! I think I am totally ready for God to just take hold of me and run off in every direction at once! xD I wanna feel this way EVERY DAY! Now, I just have to pray that Danny finds this same joy and exhilaration someday =] I pray that he will, and I pray that God will continue to move in my life like this every single day! I don't wanna lose this feeling ever!
I just wanna pray for everyone today that you all find everlasting joy, and that should anything get in the way of that joy, that you will have the strength to just shrug it off and overcome it with the power of God at your side! Blessings everybody! Have an awesome day!!
<3
The LORD is my light and my salvation -- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life -- of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 27:1 (New International Version)
I am just so happy and giddy right now I wanna just go crazy lol! I don't think I have felt this good in a while, and I am just so happy! I think I am totally ready for God to just take hold of me and run off in every direction at once! xD I wanna feel this way EVERY DAY! Now, I just have to pray that Danny finds this same joy and exhilaration someday =] I pray that he will, and I pray that God will continue to move in my life like this every single day! I don't wanna lose this feeling ever!
I just wanna pray for everyone today that you all find everlasting joy, and that should anything get in the way of that joy, that you will have the strength to just shrug it off and overcome it with the power of God at your side! Blessings everybody! Have an awesome day!!
<3
The LORD is my light and my salvation -- whom shall I fear? The LORD is the stronghold of my life -- of whom shall I be afraid?
Psalm 27:1 (New International Version)
Friday, August 28, 2009
STRESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yeah...so the first few days after school let out I have already been covered in stress. I hate it. Danny is driving me crazy (bless his heart i love the boy but I am going totally nuts...) and im trying to make sure i have stuff for next term settled since it starts in 2 weeks, and every time i say i dont want extra work days i get them. lol...i guess i kinda need them but i am just sick to death of ALWAYS having something to do! plus, money is getting on my nerves. Everyone i talk to seems to be doing something i want to do and it always involves money....money i definitely do not have. >.> I guess in the grand scheme of things, life isn't all THAT bad...but I just really desire a vacation from everything and everyone....I think the only way i will get that is if I win the Lotto, give Danny 80 percent of it to put into Forex and ill take the rest to shop with, go on a spa vay cay with and do every activity i could ever imagine doing. lolol. yeah...that would be awesome but 99.99999999999998% unlikely lol. meh.
im at work now...and by Gods grace i got the net tonight!! YIPPIE!!! Happy is sleeping, and the night is going well so far. Working again tomorrow night and sunday night so it will be a busy weekend for me as usual...but at least this time i dont have any homework to do! WOOT!
OK kids, keeping this short tonight. my comp works only in an obscure spot for the net and it is hard to type for too long so that's it for me!! Loves!!
<333 Peace and Blessings kids ;)
If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
2 Corinthians 5:17 (New International Version)
im at work now...and by Gods grace i got the net tonight!! YIPPIE!!! Happy is sleeping, and the night is going well so far. Working again tomorrow night and sunday night so it will be a busy weekend for me as usual...but at least this time i dont have any homework to do! WOOT!
OK kids, keeping this short tonight. my comp works only in an obscure spot for the net and it is hard to type for too long so that's it for me!! Loves!!
<333 Peace and Blessings kids ;)
If anyone is in Christ, he is a new creation; the old has gone, the new has come!
2 Corinthians 5:17 (New International Version)
Saturday, August 15, 2009
motivation fails me
Hey peeps!
Not too much going on since my last post. Just trying to get up off my butt and get some things done although this has been very hard for me. I just cannot get myself motivated to do/finish things. I know it needs to be done, but just can't get myself to do it. Danny says things like: Well, just do it then. Yeah, he doesn't have to do it so it's easy for him to say isn't it??
It sucks being so busy some times that when you finally get time off sorta everything just kinda goes by the wayside and ceases to get done. At least I can say that couple things have gotten done. I straightened up the house a *tiny* bit...and I mean tiny! It seemed like a lot though, but this place needs a complete overhaul, and not one I am willing to sacrifice my free time for. lols. Tonight though, we took the new desk (that I got from my bro a couple days ago,) and rearranged the living room to accommodate both the old and new desk. The old desk was originally mine, so I get that one (even though it IS broken...) and Danny has the new one. It's fine though because I am happy with the space I have in mine. I have room for my laptop and space to spread out my school books so I can study. ^^ I dusted it, threw stuff out, and reorganized it! It's so pretty now. ^^
I guess I really need to work on my self discipline. still working on the anger too (which is my biggest vice I think,) but over the last couple days it hasn't been too too bad.
I don't really have too much more to talk about... things have been pretty uneventful lately. Just trying to stay busy and keep up with my work. which hasn't been easy either. I can't wait until school is out -.-
Love you guys!!! May God bless you all! <3333
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
John 16:33
(New International Version)
Not too much going on since my last post. Just trying to get up off my butt and get some things done although this has been very hard for me. I just cannot get myself motivated to do/finish things. I know it needs to be done, but just can't get myself to do it. Danny says things like: Well, just do it then. Yeah, he doesn't have to do it so it's easy for him to say isn't it??
It sucks being so busy some times that when you finally get time off sorta everything just kinda goes by the wayside and ceases to get done. At least I can say that couple things have gotten done. I straightened up the house a *tiny* bit...and I mean tiny! It seemed like a lot though, but this place needs a complete overhaul, and not one I am willing to sacrifice my free time for. lols. Tonight though, we took the new desk (that I got from my bro a couple days ago,) and rearranged the living room to accommodate both the old and new desk. The old desk was originally mine, so I get that one (even though it IS broken...) and Danny has the new one. It's fine though because I am happy with the space I have in mine. I have room for my laptop and space to spread out my school books so I can study. ^^ I dusted it, threw stuff out, and reorganized it! It's so pretty now. ^^
I guess I really need to work on my self discipline. still working on the anger too (which is my biggest vice I think,) but over the last couple days it hasn't been too too bad.
I don't really have too much more to talk about... things have been pretty uneventful lately. Just trying to stay busy and keep up with my work. which hasn't been easy either. I can't wait until school is out -.-
Love you guys!!! May God bless you all! <3333
"I have told you these things, so that in me you may have peace. In this world you will have trouble. But take heart! I have overcome the world."
John 16:33
(New International Version)
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Oi....
Yeah...so...It's been forever I know! I am so sorry guys. I really have been busy lately. School has taken a lot of my free time (facebook is only in the background guys I promise lol...besides, it's a good break for me ;] )
I know that lately I have been battling major stress and frustration, and it's starting to bring out my anger more and more. This I an actively trying to work on now. Only God can help me through that.
For those of you who were following me when I started this blog know it was intended to be a 40-day challenge to improve my faith in Christ (which I KNOW can't always be done in 40 days, but it was a good start for my self-discipline). As you can see, I sorta failed this part lol... in blogging and in my life. This stuff is NOT easy for anyone who thinks it is (unless of course you have a pastor/drill sergeant type dude screaming in your face all day every day ^^).
I DO know that since I have been away I have conquered my fear of boats ^^ YAY! For those of you who don't know I'll explain:
when I was a freshman in high school, my dad and I really enjoyed fishing together--even since I was a kid growing up in Virginia--it was just the way our family spent time together. Well, we wanted to go on a deep sea fishing trip. My mother has horrible motion sickness and did not want to go, so it was just a father/daughter day =] This is especially nice because my dad do NOT always see eye to eye and have a very hard time talking to each other without an interrogation by him or us fighting over whatever the hot topic is at the time. So, this day was going to be special. We got up at 5 a.m., I had a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast and off we went ready for a day out in the Gulf! We got out there to see a substitute captain but we didn't think anything of it nor even cared that much. Turns out, there was 8-10 ft. seas that day. I was the first one sick. The bagel went over the side (even my dramamine that I had taken moments before). After that, I was laying down on a covered area in the boat on a cushioned bench with a large bucket, and it was full...my DAD (who NEVER get's sick, and in my 23 years have only seen him sick twice,) even joined me once or twice which only made me sicker. Mind you, by this point I'm chucking stomach acid so it was bright yellow/orange, and burned my stomach and throat so bad I thought I swallowed fire. NOT pretty! I am not sure if it was part of the dramamine that was left in my system (if any,) or just me puking (literally) all day, that I actually passed out and didn't wake up until the END OF THE TRIP! This was at 6 p.m.! I later found out that everyone on the boat was sick and not a single person on that boat was fishing. Not only was this just sheer stupidity but also very dangerous because our boat could have capsized or someone could have gotten tossed over because the seas were so rough.
Long story short, I was on medicine for a year to correct the damage done to my stomach (pain was so bad I couldn't sleep many times,) I had nightmares of the event several times, and was afraid of being sick again and always got an anxiety attack every time I thought about getting back on a boat. So I haven't been on one since. My dad felt like it was his fault even though it wasn't. But, on Sunday God presented me with the opportunity to go out on the boat again with no way for me to make an excuse to get out of it (Thanks God...lol). I loved it! I still needed some dramamine, but only felt dizzy when we were still and kept getting hit by waves.
I am so happy that I finally went back out there. It made everyone so happy! I actually have pictures now to prove it hehe I'll have to post those soon. ^^ This all did have a point though I promise ;]
It is amazing how God will just stick you in a situation when you feel you aren't ready to face it. I prayed so much that day! It was insane! However, God got me through it and I had a fantastic day!! Let this be a lesson to you all: TRUST IN GOD! He knows what is best for us, and at what time we are ready to face whatever it is we need to face in our lives. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, and trust me! I feel stronger now, and I am able to enjoy more time with my family. We even found spots where people take the boat to a sandbar/beach deal and they camp out there!! So Danny and I have a new way to go out and spend time together!! I can't wait because it sounds like so much fun!
Well, this has gotten a LOT longer than I expected, so I think it's time to say goodbye for now ^^ I hope you all have a blessed day and I will see you as soon as I can!! Hopefully tonight or tomorrow.
<3 and Blessings!
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
Hebrews 11:6 (New International Version)
I know that lately I have been battling major stress and frustration, and it's starting to bring out my anger more and more. This I an actively trying to work on now. Only God can help me through that.
For those of you who were following me when I started this blog know it was intended to be a 40-day challenge to improve my faith in Christ (which I KNOW can't always be done in 40 days, but it was a good start for my self-discipline). As you can see, I sorta failed this part lol... in blogging and in my life. This stuff is NOT easy for anyone who thinks it is (unless of course you have a pastor/drill sergeant type dude screaming in your face all day every day ^^).
I DO know that since I have been away I have conquered my fear of boats ^^ YAY! For those of you who don't know I'll explain:
when I was a freshman in high school, my dad and I really enjoyed fishing together--even since I was a kid growing up in Virginia--it was just the way our family spent time together. Well, we wanted to go on a deep sea fishing trip. My mother has horrible motion sickness and did not want to go, so it was just a father/daughter day =] This is especially nice because my dad do NOT always see eye to eye and have a very hard time talking to each other without an interrogation by him or us fighting over whatever the hot topic is at the time. So, this day was going to be special. We got up at 5 a.m., I had a bagel and cream cheese for breakfast and off we went ready for a day out in the Gulf! We got out there to see a substitute captain but we didn't think anything of it nor even cared that much. Turns out, there was 8-10 ft. seas that day. I was the first one sick. The bagel went over the side (even my dramamine that I had taken moments before). After that, I was laying down on a covered area in the boat on a cushioned bench with a large bucket, and it was full...my DAD (who NEVER get's sick, and in my 23 years have only seen him sick twice,) even joined me once or twice which only made me sicker. Mind you, by this point I'm chucking stomach acid so it was bright yellow/orange, and burned my stomach and throat so bad I thought I swallowed fire. NOT pretty! I am not sure if it was part of the dramamine that was left in my system (if any,) or just me puking (literally) all day, that I actually passed out and didn't wake up until the END OF THE TRIP! This was at 6 p.m.! I later found out that everyone on the boat was sick and not a single person on that boat was fishing. Not only was this just sheer stupidity but also very dangerous because our boat could have capsized or someone could have gotten tossed over because the seas were so rough.
Long story short, I was on medicine for a year to correct the damage done to my stomach (pain was so bad I couldn't sleep many times,) I had nightmares of the event several times, and was afraid of being sick again and always got an anxiety attack every time I thought about getting back on a boat. So I haven't been on one since. My dad felt like it was his fault even though it wasn't. But, on Sunday God presented me with the opportunity to go out on the boat again with no way for me to make an excuse to get out of it (Thanks God...lol). I loved it! I still needed some dramamine, but only felt dizzy when we were still and kept getting hit by waves.
I am so happy that I finally went back out there. It made everyone so happy! I actually have pictures now to prove it hehe I'll have to post those soon. ^^ This all did have a point though I promise ;]
It is amazing how God will just stick you in a situation when you feel you aren't ready to face it. I prayed so much that day! It was insane! However, God got me through it and I had a fantastic day!! Let this be a lesson to you all: TRUST IN GOD! He knows what is best for us, and at what time we are ready to face whatever it is we need to face in our lives. What doesn't kill you only makes you stronger, and trust me! I feel stronger now, and I am able to enjoy more time with my family. We even found spots where people take the boat to a sandbar/beach deal and they camp out there!! So Danny and I have a new way to go out and spend time together!! I can't wait because it sounds like so much fun!
Well, this has gotten a LOT longer than I expected, so I think it's time to say goodbye for now ^^ I hope you all have a blessed day and I will see you as soon as I can!! Hopefully tonight or tomorrow.
<3 and Blessings!
And without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.
Hebrews 11:6 (New International Version)
Friday, July 3, 2009
WOWZERS
OK, so the last couple days have been ridiculous. The last day I posted…yeah, it was BAD. Like, really BAD. It was like everything I had started working on this past week just came up to haunt me in a big way. I had zero tolerance, no patience, I was moody and agitated all day, and just had no desire to improve it. I wish I could blame my hormones for that, but that would be too much of a cop-out. Then, I was super busy this weekend with work, and when I got home Sunday morning, I had tons to do so I never got around to posting a follow-up OR a new day’s update. So I know I’m behind. However, it’s all here for you in this post ^^
It seems like the closer I get my relationship to God, whether by prayer or just merely doing what I said I would do for the day, the demons just lash out and rear their disgustingly ugly heads. It’s sad…and very frustrating. As supportive as he’s being though, Danny seems to be the one testing me the most. I don’t think it’s intentional at all, but merely just that the devil is trying to use him against me so I don’t think he’s supporting me. Of course, I am already hot on the devil’s trail and I know that he’s trying to use Danny against me so that is half the battle The other half of that battle would be to recognize it when it starts to happen (ie: when Danny starts pissing me the heck off…lols). It won’t be easy that’s for sure, but I know I can do more to combat it.
So, it’s a new week, and a new challenge. Let’s get back into the swing of things shall we??
Today I’ll work on not letting Danny get to me today, and to understand that the devil is using him unfairly against me to make me fall. This will an endless battle, but I need to face it today…head on…all by itself. We’ll see how it goes!
<3
Heavenly Father, I come to you today in a simple prayer. Please cover everyone (literally everyone) with your love, grace, wisdom, and endless protection Lord. I pray that you will help to keep my mind keen to all of the devil’s work to try and separate me from you Lord. I would also like to ask that you bless Danny, and protect him from any strongholds that the devil may have on him. Also, please bless him with this awesome job opportunity Father if it is your will. Should it not be your will, please help us to see what you have planned for us Oh Gracious Lord! Allow each and every one of us to constantly seek your blessing and anointing Father, and to sing of your awesomeness for all to hear. In Jesus’ name, AMEN.
But in your heats set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.
1 Peter 3:15 (New International Version)
It seems like the closer I get my relationship to God, whether by prayer or just merely doing what I said I would do for the day, the demons just lash out and rear their disgustingly ugly heads. It’s sad…and very frustrating. As supportive as he’s being though, Danny seems to be the one testing me the most. I don’t think it’s intentional at all, but merely just that the devil is trying to use him against me so I don’t think he’s supporting me. Of course, I am already hot on the devil’s trail and I know that he’s trying to use Danny against me so that is half the battle The other half of that battle would be to recognize it when it starts to happen (ie: when Danny starts pissing me the heck off…lols). It won’t be easy that’s for sure, but I know I can do more to combat it.
So, it’s a new week, and a new challenge. Let’s get back into the swing of things shall we??
Today I’ll work on not letting Danny get to me today, and to understand that the devil is using him unfairly against me to make me fall. This will an endless battle, but I need to face it today…head on…all by itself. We’ll see how it goes!
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Heavenly Father, I come to you today in a simple prayer. Please cover everyone (literally everyone) with your love, grace, wisdom, and endless protection Lord. I pray that you will help to keep my mind keen to all of the devil’s work to try and separate me from you Lord. I would also like to ask that you bless Danny, and protect him from any strongholds that the devil may have on him. Also, please bless him with this awesome job opportunity Father if it is your will. Should it not be your will, please help us to see what you have planned for us Oh Gracious Lord! Allow each and every one of us to constantly seek your blessing and anointing Father, and to sing of your awesomeness for all to hear. In Jesus’ name, AMEN.
But in your heats set apart Christ as Lord. Always be prepared to give an answer to everyone who asks you to give the reason for the hope that you have. But do this with gentleness and respect.
1 Peter 3:15 (New International Version)
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